Intentionality and Laziness
When I had gone to kochi biennale in January, I was not sure where the exact problem was, but I could feel that there was something off about the whole thing, Something about it felt uninspiring and uncreative even though I was surrounded by art. I couldn’t say why though.
Being here in tokyo, having seen more than 10 art galleries, it is obvious why. Intent. The thinking here is deep and rich and dense, and it flows out in the work that I see and how I experience it. Everywhere it is easy and obvious to feel like there was some vision that the curator had. Not to check a box but to communicate something.
For the first time in a longtime I feel like this is created and crafted for me to experience and not just to consume. What a rare feeling in the world we live in.
Even my own articles, I feel like they often take up a form because I feel like they should be X length and that I have to be consistent with them, to show up every Monday. But I also wonder how much I am just using it as a shortcut for myself.
Do you know what causes aging and death? Oxygen. The thing that we all know is essential for survival also slowly leads to oxidation and eventual demise of all things living. It ironic.
Consistency is the same. It is essential to do anything, especially if you want to do things successfully. Yet it is its own trap. It forces you slowly into a comfort zone. The zone of doing things the same way. Routines and processes are great for efficiency and then they are also great at letting you get comfortable in the space that you are in. So when I try to show up to the page every sunday/monday, I dont know how much I am thinking about self knowledge, which is what this exercise was supposed to do. It feels as if there is a certain sense of intellectual laziness that it can let fester. And I want to get away from that.
So instead of making things for consumption, I want to make them for experience. Ofcourse it wont be perfect, but I want to start with stopping these articles when I am done with the thing I want to say.
